Maybe when you've worked OT for two consecutive days and clocked more than 24hrs of working hours, you've begin to hallucinate like me.

Hallucinating that bodies all have other bodies and you have nobody. And you'd have the tendency to take a peek at that box labelled "unhappy things".

As much as I don't hate work, I don't like to find myself dead beat by the time I crawl home from jurong, too tired to talk to anyone, too tired to watch tv, too tired to surf the net, and too tired to talk to God. Ironically I would have to garner additional, invisible strength to finish up office work at home, and life sucks when you meet with a problem while completing the assignment and you wonder how you are going to account to your seniors the next day.

Some reasons I've come up with: "I really took time and tried to understand the figures, but I just can't figure out where did this sum of money come from", "I understood your explanation that day but when I sat down to do it out it's a different matter", "I need to have a clearer idea of how the issues piece together rather than doing up the fragments only".

Some reasons I feel like trying one day: "by the time I reach home my brain is too tired to think already", "I need to get a life out of the office", "I don't get adequate help when I run into problems because everyone is just to busy to bother about anything or anybody else", or, "I'm outright dumb".

As I am sitting here where I am, I suddenly wondered, what can I do when I start thinking of depressing things. My brain tells me to snap out of it, my heart tells me to forget about it, my body tells me to sleep and heck it, my spirit tells me to pray and let go of it.

It's already so difficult to understand a fellow human, and you want me to understand God.